A NEW YEAR...A NEW I

SO MUCH HAS CHANGED SINCE LASTED I WROTE
ONE..THE BABY IS HERE HER NAME IS MARLEY, AND SHE IS SO BEAUTIFUL
SECOND IM JUST NOT THE SAME PERSON ANYMORE..PHYSICALLY, EMOTIONALLY, AND MENTALLY
....IM LEARNING TO JUST TAKE WHATEVER LIFE DISHES AT I
....LIVING LIFE IN THE MOMENT COME WHAT MAY
I N I HAD TOO MANY CLOSE ENCOUNTERS WITH DEATH BUT HERE I AM
I HAVE A BIGGER APPETITE FOR LIFE YOU CAN SAY
DONT GET I WRONG I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN HUNGRY I JUST I WASNT EATING AS MUCH...I DO NOW!
ANYWAYS I DIGRESS ...................
I LOVE MY LIFE AND IT SHOWS WITH EVERY SUNRISE
IN A FEW WORDS LIFE JUST TOO SHORT AND NEVER GUARANTEED SO MAKE THE BEST OF YOURS I SURE DO
Untill we meet again lamo..It's Laterr!!

Distracted

Damn I need to focus..
I just skipped ma math class, the motivation is just there today!
A lot on my mind I guess..that's always the case though
I still have to take my mid-term online
I am definitely happy about today and I should be IM ALIVE!!
I wanna do something fun, it being so long that I dont even know what classifies as fun lol
Might be an exageration but thats how I feel
Cant wait to start preparing for the babyshower and I so cant wait for the baby to get here
YAYYY BABY
Well Im off to do some homework
Untill we meet again lamo
It's Laterr!!

First Time!

I have it all planned out
wat to say..wat to do..how to act yet that's not how it comes out
Head full of so much sometimes I think it's not normal
So why is it all stuck up there! Up there in my head..?
Not a lot of things bother me but my own thoughts!! Eccentric..but that's ME!!
So many wonderful memories up there
however they don't erase all the bad ones.
I WISH THEY COULD..I WISH I COULD!
The worse part is that I partially remember and it kills me but
Do I try and remember what could possibly be the defining moment of my childhood/life
even if it mean acknowledging memories so hurtful they've been repressed?